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a blank piece of paper just means
an opportunity to pen in some beautiful language

Tuesday, 29 August 2006 ( 12:34 pm )

Haha this may be the last post I am writing before I go for my prelims. The stress level is overwhelming.

Just took my GP paper ytd. It was a killer! None of the essay qns were doable. Haiz the mass media qn was not my type and I had to do the general qn. It goes sometink like this: ' The only way to grow is through adversity'. Firstly, I didn't even noe the exact meaning of the word adversity but I guess it to be smth like hardship of a challenge to life. So I crap on and worse wrote a 2-lined conclusion cos I couldn't tink of a good one and my pen chose to go crazy and the ink become faded. To tink it such a ex and new pen. Well here is a 2-lined conclusion for this para: 'My prelims Gp essay will bring much surprise to the marker. Because he/she will be marking the lowest ever standard of english record in the whole history.' Hur hur...

Paper 2 is equally bad. My summary was really a summary cos I got had 80 words. Horrors! People noramlly overshot the 120 word limit and I am short of words! What a short-winded person i am huh... So the solution: I anyhow throw in some sentence which I thout is logical about the traits of hope. Maybe the examiner will apreciate the fact tat I give my own opinions about the bane of hope- in a summary no less! Can someone just kill me...

Well The paper is over so I heck care abt it liao. Anyway I am so used to failing gp tat I will prob yawn if I see another one of those ugly marks. Haiz I try my very best and looks like there's not much I can do except pray I guess. Now my life pretty much revolve around mugging out at the library, airport or at home. Trying out the studying out tinky since studying at home dun really seems to work for me. What with the distraction and extremely hot weather.

OH I am gg to confess my love! I really really love this guy... xuan bin!!! He is the most shuai and charming guy in my life. Wahaha... I was totally electrocuted when I saw him playing the piano during tat 3rd epi of jin san shun. Heh I always had a tink for guys playing the piano but then u have to see wat the guy is like lar. Wah xuan bin is really the guy of my dreams leh... haha although he is bad-tempered in the show, he is still ke ai. I like the chemisty between him and jin san shun cos they are really funny. The whole tink is not exaggerated like some taiwan ou xiang ju. Oh the other gal xizhen is also pretty and she is not the typical evil 3rd party in almost every korean show... mmm she is rather likeable and perfect. I admire her for the way she can present herself so well and also jin san shun for her strong character and ways to cover up her flaws with her strengths. But xuan bin is still the best haha... his tv name is zhenxian!

So far in my life , there is only 2 people who can affect me with the words they say. Haha I noe I am seriously flawed and undiscipline but it's just these 2 peopls' word which can really make me to feel gulity about my actions or sit down and tink over wat I have done or am planning to do. One is a guy n the other is a gal. I dun really care abt the opinion of the guy cos although i feel sry sometimes, I will still do it anyway. He cannot do anytink anyway since we seldom see each other and he also can't noe much abt wat I am doing... heh heh. As for the gal, haiz I must say I must always tink about my actions. Cos I always tink tat wateva she do and say is really right though she is not scolding me or wat and its just her own personal principles. I will end up being really gulity. She is someone who can influence wat I do in jc cos it's really right and good for me. Must thanx her alot. Really glad to haf such a friend who can teach me lots. Haha she reminds me of jing though she is less funny and sisterly but more witty and cool.

Sometink happened last week and I realised tat the injustice done is really evident. I really wan to do smth about it like tell those particular ppl off instead of putting up a facade and pretend nothing is wrong. I want to go rite up and tell them: do u noe how unfair it is, do u noe we feel really used. U tink we dun mind it and we dun haf a choice? I am not much of a victim but I really feel the unjust for my friend who finally burst out to us cos we are her friends. I am really happy tat she can tell us wat is on her mind cos she normally keeps her cool and refuse to tell. Blame it on my lack of ability to be out-spoken and weak character cos I wan to maintain the peace. But is it right to suffer in silence though sch is coming to an end. I dunnoe and dun care anymore. If it happens again, I may just snap. To the person i least wan to voice out to but is perhaps most possible. Arghh and when I tink of the end of the year and my stupid agreement to be "used", I just wan to slap myself.

Haha sry for sounding so harsh. I am speaking in riddles but I am once again not brave enuff to name names and i dun tink it's right to state their names w/o them noeing anyway. But those ard me recently should noe wat is gg on... well but they won't read this anyway. Best of luck to those mugging hard. Take care yar =)

I like this song alot cos it brings out my feelings about the above incident.

歌曲:海阔天空歌手:信乐团

我曾怀疑我
走在沙漠中
从不结果无论种什么梦
才张开翅膀风却便沉默
习惯伤痛能不能算收获
庆幸的是我一直没回头
终于发现真的是有绿洲
每把汗流了生命变的厚重
走出沮丧才看见新宇宙

海阔天空在勇敢以后
要拿执着将命运的锁打破
冷漠的人谢谢你们曾经看轻我
让我不低头更精采的活

凌晨的窗口失眠整夜以后
看着黎明从云里抬起了头
日落是沉潜日出是成熟
只要是光一定会灿烂的

海阔天空在勇敢以后
要拿执着将命运的锁打破
冷漠的人谢谢你们曾经看轻我
让我不低头更精采的活

海阔天空狂风暴雨以后
转过头对旧心酸一笑而过
最懂我的人谢谢一路默默的陪着我
让我拥有好故事可以说

看未来一步步来了

So inspiring... I fell in love with xing yue tuan when i went kbox with hui they all... haha love singing their song cos it can help to release stress! Highly recommended.

Friday, 18 August 2006 ( 8:30 pm )

I noe I v slow but I finally realised tat annoymous person is back at jiao's blog tagging groundless stuffs! I can't believe got such kind of ppl who got nothing better to do! His/her comments are distasteful and down right untruthful. I totally look down on such a disgusting person who dun haf the guts to reveal him/herself. If u feel righteous and wan to voice out anytink, state ur evidence and ur name please... dun sprout nonsense and leave ur name as annoymous. Such a loser! Jiao is definitely not those tinks which u said lor- keep away from my friend u ****.

Whew need to cool down. Normally wun get angry but when ppl attack my friends on groundless reasons, I have no quaints about showing my displeasure.

Mugging alot but managed to squeeze out time to read finish tat xiao shuo I borrowed. Maybe quek will rmb it. Haha the moral of the story, a gal and a guy can neva eva become true blue best friends cos one party will end up secretly liking another. Heh tink such r/nship are only possible if the guy is like "bitchy" or gayish. If not, I tink there's v v few cases where guy-gal are best friends n nothing else. If someone steps over it and the person dun like u, then friendship will be affected so it's kind of wasteful. Its better to be normal friends and get too close to a guy... haha tat has been my motto.

Another tink I learned- look for someone who will give u security and will not make u cry. And must have mo qi! Haha I have been rooting for tat guy lead though the gal neva choose him at first... she must be blind lar. The other guy also like her alot but too bad, he made her wait and cry too much. The guy lead better lor cos he so ke ai and shy shy like tat... heh and he stayed by her side thruout.

I need to mug now... Oh I am becoming a pig- gouging on food and eating like a giant. Becoming fat don't threaten me much cos I dun care- food more impt. Haha I haf been brand greedy, piggy by my class friends all becos of tat extra big bowl of hor fun. Okok I will try to change... heh. I dun go for food shopping liao wat... but mon maybe gg tm hor.... *evil laughter*

Sunday, 13 August 2006 ( 9:12 pm )

Haven blog for a long long time. My life now revolve around mugging, mugging and mugging. Haiz rather bleak hor! Tat's why i secretly yearn to go to sch so at least i am go food shopping with jane after sch... wahaha.

I really got lots of things to blog but they all so expired tat i can't really talk about them anymore. Oh if any sadistic one out there is speculating whether the "xue ying holiday curse" got occur for this holiday- well i neva fail to disappoint. Once again, I fell sick AGAIN- in another holiday no less. I got a bad flu, lost half my voice n sounded like a granny for 3 days. The ironic tink was tat I actually went kbox on thu. Wahaha I had to torture quek and hui with my nasal voice but at tat time, I still had 3/4 of my voice lar so it wasn't tat bad yet. Fortunately, I have almost recovered for sch like always.

Went to the beach ytd with my family. I really love gg to the beach at night! Got those beautiful stars in the sky, can see those great airplanes land nearby and enjoy the cooling breeze! Really a nice place to chill out =)

Oh this is rather random but my sis on this mtv of her fav female celebrity, one tat I am not really fond of. But somehow wheneva I saw tat gal, I would tink of 2 person whom I normally wun tink of. My junior and a friend. The moral: one tink can lead to another. Argh I got no mood to blog cos my eyes are stuck to the tv. Ok I will blog the nxt time. Bad time to on the com... this post is so nonsensical. Really sry to all the readers out there!